Random...

Yesterday I did an Expo. It was a "Mom & Me" event for Mothers Day. Lots of people, but I only did 5 faces. I was extremely pumped about it. I just knew I would be busy and get lots of clients. Didn't happen. I am not necessarily bummed about it, I just wish I wouldn't have gotten my hopes up. I put a lot of thought and work into it...just wish there would've been a better return for my effort. There was other people doing makeup there. A Mary Kay Rep...yuck, and another girl. They had a good flow of traffic...so I don't know what happened. Mary Kay is well known so maybe people just go with whats familiar..? The makeup I did do was Amazing, and I'm very proud of it. I am becoming a lot more confident, especially seeing others in action and their work. I can honestly say- (without being vain) I do kick ass makeup! :)  I shouldn't be afraid anymore. Some people that came by commented on my own makeup, and said how awesome it was...and 2 of the faces I did said "We want it like yours!"  I have No Shame in tooting my own friggin horn. It's exciting doing something you love and getting to make people feel wonderful about themselves.

After I packed my stuff up, I took advantage of the Massage Room. There was about 5 people offering massages. The therapist I got with knew a lot about MS, Thankfully! He said he helps lots of people with it, and how awesome I'm doing and stuff. I've never had one so I was nervous as hell. I really don't understand why I get so nervous about Everything. I like was shaking and shit for the first 10 mins. Talking myself into relaxing is so annoying. He knew I was nervous and did a great job soothing me. I guess the fact of some stranger feelin' me up is something normal to be nervous about, but I take it to a new level...alll the time. 

I am definitely a believer in the benefit of massage. There is so many benefits of it with MS patients, and even improve gait and/or cognitive function for those with severe issues. I'm glad I finally had the nerve to do it and am excited that I feel like I have an option for pain instead of medicine. 

 I had 2 knots in my back and some in my forearm, so he will continue to work on those. My plan is to get them twice a month, and maybe if I quit smoking soon, more often. I think it'll help with my leg pain, this weird neck stiffness, and my devilish anxiety. I felt like a new person when he was done...it was epic. 

I'm also a total loser who bought a MS shirt that says "Keep Smyelin". My self pic skills are awful, but you can kinda see it.  

Until the next time I have something to say, thank you for reading my story...my rambles...my life. It's nice to get all my weirdness out into the world and not held in so much.

Call your parents and tell them you love them. It'll mean the world someday.